R e m i n i s c e n c e

Wednesday, April 28, 2010 | 2:10 AM | 0 comments

Regarding previous posts.

Thanks for caring guys.

To all my friends who felt for the previous posts, if there are any, I'm sorry le. I told you I didn't mean it. Being as sensitive or insensitive I really can't bear for people to feel angry over something like this.
I wasn't angry at you all personally. WAS. Really. I was just annoyed by my inability to control the class.
No seriously. I've really felt like resigning before.
So please don't take this to heart.
Sometimes people complain about certain jobs they have in the class. About doing extra work and things.
And who do they go to with their complaints?
Guess.
A test of patience and trust

Tell me why people don't like this job. I can give you at least 5 reasons.
Why I still go along with it?
Because of the belief set that I can. The reason why you all chose me.
Ranting? Yes. Meaning? No, maybe not.

I can mention a ew names of who is, was, or could have been angry at me.
Shall I?

I'm posting an open apology now.
Sorry to all my classmates, Sorry to Carol, Jamie, Joyce, Avy, Yokey, Dhanu and whoever who reads this.
Thanks for putting up with all my ranting and pushiness and sorries and so on and blah.
I know I've changed a lot.
Probably for worse. So much worse that I'm actually posting this on my blog.
Sorry for everything, from art to studies to KH to class terkotor to ANYTHING.

Can anyone tell me how to draw a firm line before bending it for myself?

Carol, Jamie, Yokey, Dhanu, Avy Joyce, if anyone of you read this, sorry for that day when the book was going around. If you'd noticed the noise was unbearable. I'm sure you noticed it.
Me being me I am hot-tempered and I can't stand getting annoyed.
And paranoid too. Very paranoid.
I'm kind of a doofus, trying to please everyone when I know I can't =(
Haih. Lately I've been very irritable too.
I'm reaching the last straw here.

Now you see why I said don't let me be elected monitor?
Why should you not? It's pretty obvious.

From school to BM to KH to art comps to anything at all, maybe the AJKS will understand.
You rant too right?
What about me?
We're all in the same boat.
So what is my job compared to yours?
Hahahha. Sorry larh. Really sorry. If there's anything you're not pleased about, feel free to come and tell me.
But please don't expect me to be able to solve every problem you bring to me.
And don't blame me if I'm unable to.
No one's perfect.
And neither am I.
I give roses to the AJKS for our class. And Wee Shan and Odelia.

Please don't elect me as monitor anymore. Now you know why =)

And to one more individual.
I'M SORRY OKAY.
I am willing to apologize if you're willing to listen to my explanation. But if I tell you.. wouldn't that mean I can't be trusted? Would you share with me if I told you other people's secrets? Would you trust me to keep yours?
Honesty is very important.
I can't do anything if you don't want to talk to me. I really can't. I can apologize all I want but it's up to you to listen.
If I blurt it out, would you trust me with other things next time?
I hope you'll understand that it'll blow away soon =)
God bless ya all.

-Joy.